I see my path, but I don’t know where it leads. Not knowing where I’m going is what inspires me to travel it. I'm on my journey to finding myself self in a world where it's very easy to get lost.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Love doesn't hurt



So i met this girl inthe summer and just sorta put her under my wings and she's become like a little sister to me. she's the sweetest happiest person. but as i got to know her more i found that she was very reserved and apologiozes for everything, which i often told her to stop. She had a boyfriend who she's been with for about four years and she's ony 18 years old and that was her first and only boyfriend so you can imagine her attachment to him. I just assumed she was very shy but she dances sing and is a lover of the arts so she can't be that shy i thought. About a month went by and the fall semester begins. We became even closer with each other i am still two years older than her so I still feel like i have to look out for her. i notice that she is constantly talking about her boyfriend, she talks to him constantly on the phone like any other relationship but she always sneaks away when she speaks to him on the phone. she would bring him up at random times like for example we were both in my room doing homework and it was silent then she would just come out of nowhere and talks about the bad things he does. but to me it sounds like normal relationship problems. Then i woild go through her phone and find the most disrespectful text that just doesn't sound like something someone would say to someone they love. he called her a "bitch" "slut" he was extremely posessive and never wants her to go anywhere.


She is a very pretty girl and have no problem getting a guy and the guy she was with was not that goodlooking. finally one day me and her made plans to go to a party.one night. she told me she was going to work with him because she has to buy an outfit to wear. she was suppose to be back at 9 o clock that night. when it became after 9 i got worried and had a strange feeling so i called her. no one picked up the phone so i called again. "get the fuck outta my car, get the fuck out" I heard on the other end of the phone was a male voice, the phone got disconnected. ironically i was watching "Mother may i sleep with danger" thats a movie about domestic violence. So you can imagine how paranoid i was. i called back about five times with no response.


about 15 minutes later i recieved a call from her, i was in my room with two other friends. she was crying and asked us to meet her outside because she calle the police. we went outside to her crying and couldn't even speak. Her boyfriend tried to push he out of a moving car. there was no prior physical abuse but the emotional abuse was clear as day. she called the police and now they are not to have any contact with each other or they will get arrested. which i think is perfect. she has alot of work to do on rebuilding herself but he's gone.


Sopay attention to the people around you because it wasn't clear to me what was going on and things could have ended alot worst. and speak up if you see someone going through this it's better to be safe than sorry.





no those are not real bruises..photoshop.. i couldn't find a good pic.

My MTV Winners

ummm yea so just my picks for the VMA's

Video of the Year
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)"
Eminem — "We Made You"
Lady Gaga - "Poker Face"
Britney Spears - "Womanizer"
Kanye West - "Love Lockdown"

Best Male Video
Eminem — "We Made You"
Jay-Z — "D.O.A. (Death of Auto-Tune)"
Ne-Yo — "Miss Independent"
T.I. (featuring Rihanna) — "Live Your Life"
Kanye West — "Love Lockdown"

Best Female Video
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)"
Kelly Clarkson — "My Life Would Suck Without You"
Lady Gaga — "Poker Face"
Katy Perry — "Hot N Cold"
Pink — "So What"
Taylor Swift — "You Belong with Me"

Best New Artist
3OH!3 — "Don't Trust Me"
Drake — "Best I Ever Had"
Kid Cudi — "Day 'n' Nite"
Lady Gaga — "Poker Face"
Asher Roth — "I Love College"

Best Pop Video
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)"
Cobra Starship (featuring Leighton Meester) — "Good Girls Go Bad"
Lady Gaga — "Poker Face"
Britney Spears — "Womanizer"
Wisin & Yandel — "Abusadora"

Best Rock Video
Coldplay — "Viva la Vida"
Fall Out Boy — "I Don't Care"
Green Day — "21 Guns"
Kings of Leon — "Use Somebody"
Paramore — "Decode"

Best Hip-Hop Video
Eminem — "We Made You"
Flo Rida — "Right Round"
Jay-Z — "D.O.A. (Death of Auto-Tune)"
Asher Roth — "I Love College"
Kanye West — "Love Lockdown"

Breakthrough Video
Matt and Kim — "Lessons Learned"
Anjulie — "Boom"
Bat for Lashes — "Daniel"
Chairlift — "Evident Utensil"
Cold War Kids — "I've Seen Enough"
Death Cab for Cutie — "Grapevine Fires"
Gnarls Barkley — "Who's Gonna Save My Soul"
Major Lazer — "Hold the Line"
Passion Pit — "The Reeling"
Yeah Yeah Yeahs — "Heads Will Roll"

Best Direction in a Video
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)" (Director: Jake Nava)
Cobra Starship (featuring Leighton Meester) — "Good Girls Go Bad" (Director: Kai Regan)
Green Day — "21 Guns" (Director: Marc Webb)
Lady Gaga — "Paparazzi" (Director: Jonas Åkerlund)
Britney Spears — "Circus" (Director: Francis Lawrence)

Best Choreography in a Video
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)" (Choreographers: Frank Gatson and JaQuel Knight)
Ciara (featuring Justin Timberlake) — "Love Sex Magic" (Choreographers: Jamaica Craft and "Marty")
Kristinia DeBarge — "Goodbye" (Choreographer: Jamaica Craft)
A.R. Rahman and the Pussycat Dolls (featuring Nicole Scherzinger) — "Jai Ho! (You Are My Destiny)" (Choreographers: Robin Antin and Mikey Minden)
Britney Spears — "Circus" (Choreographer: Andre Fuentes)

Best Special Effects in a Video
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)" (Special Effects: VFX Effects and Louis Mackall V)
Eminem — "We Made You" (Special Effects: Ingenuity Engine)
Gnarls Barkley — "Who's Gonna Save My Soul" (Special Effects: Gradient Effects and Image Metrics)
Lady Gaga — "Paparazzi" (Special Effects: Chimney Pot)
Kanye West (featuring Mr Hudson) — "Paranoid" (Special Effects: Wizardflex)

Best Art Direction in a Video
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)" (Art Director: Niamh Byrne)
Coldplay — "Viva la Vida" (Art Director: Gregory de Maria)
Gnarls Barkley — "Who's Gonna Save My Soul" (Art Director: Zach Matthews)
Lady Gaga — "Paparazzi" (Art Director: Jason Hamilton)
Britney Spears — "Circus" (Art Directors: Laura Fox and Charles Varga)

Best Editing in a Video
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)" (Editor: Jarrett Fijal)
Coldplay — "Viva la Vida" (Editor: Hype Williams)
Miley Cyrus — "7 Things" (Editor: Jarrett Fijal)
Lady Gaga — "Paparazzi" (Editors: Danny Tull and Jonas Åkerlund)
Britney Spears — "Circus" (Editor: Jarrett Fijal)

Best Cinematography in a Video
Beyoncé — "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)" (Director of Photography: Jim Fealy)
Coldplay — "Viva la Vida" (Director of Photography: John Perez)
Green Day — "21 Guns" (Director of Photography: Jonathan Sela)
Lady Gaga — "Paparazzi" (Director of Photography: Eric Broms)
Britney Spears — "Circus" (Director of Photography: Thomas Kloss)

Best Video (That Should Have Won a Moonman)
Beastie Boys — "Sabotage"
Björk — "Human Behaviour"
Dr. Dre — "Nuthin' but a "G" Thang"
Foo Fighters — "Everlong"
George Michael — "Freedom! '90"
OK Go — "Here It Goes Again"
Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers — "Into the Great Wide Open"
Radiohead — "Karma Police"
David Lee Roth — "California Girls"
U2 — "Where the Streets Have No Name"




Kanye, Kanye, Kanye Just shut up.

It Lights Up The Whole Sky

Very boring day at southern but bay is the sunset beautiful. Thats the view out my window I know luck:)





OLD PHOTOGRAPHY

BORED







Just stuff i've seen on the net that caught my eyes:
I just love rihanna anfd hwtever she does...dont care for anyone elses opinions.


I love these two girls I think they're such great role models for african American girls, of just girls in general.

ahhhhh Trey Songz ever since Howard homecoming in 07 when I saw him perform i've been a fan. he's freakin gorgeous...and of course it helps that he can sing his ass off..his new CD is really great.

Amber Rose, honestly I wasn't a fan a first because she really doesn't do anything but I would love to have her job of dressing up for living. and I really don't knbow her story but she's never done anything to me i love her hair and her pink lipstick :)

Tyra Gets Real

Love her or hate her I have a Ton of respect for Tyra for doing this.

Brooklyn!!


So Every year since who knows when they have a huge parade in Brooklyn, New York on Labor Day. It's known as The West Indies Parade. SO MUCH FUN!!! I've been attending every year faithfully for the past four years. it's just vey cool if you ever get the chance definately check it out one year.

































So Every year since who knows when they have a huge parade in Brooklyn, New York on Labor Day. It's known as The West Indies Parade. SO MUCH FUN!!! I've been attending every year faithfully for the past four years. it's just vey cool if you ever get the chance definately check it out one year.